Weary

I am just so tired of all the physical aches and discomforts of the last 2 years. After starting out seeing an orthopedist about what we thought was a problem with my elbow, it seems that the difficulties have only escalated. I have been seeing Dr. Martin, the neurologist, for over 2 years now, and the inflammation in my spinal cord and subsequent discomfort in my hands remains unchanged. It takes such a mental toll on me to have this tingling / stinging / burning always in the background, no matter what I do. I think the stress of this has made my general health much worse. It's not that I worry about it, but I find that no matter how I sit, lie, walk, run, ride, lift, mow, bathe, etc. I cannot escape the discomforts, and this inability to escape beats me down. Every cold or allergy sniffle, cough, bruise, cut and ache is just piled on top of that which does not go away, and so the accumulation of symptoms to overcome feels insurmountable. I want to work in the yard, exercise, play basketball, go for walks and ENJOY them, but that seems like a distant dream for now. I keep praying that God will take this away, but He has other plans, I guess. I've heard that sometimes things have to be broken down before they can be made stronger. I'm ready for the stronger part!